I think its like someone mentioned earlier, its cathartic. You can live a double life, its like theres no risk involved in telling people online, i know i dont know anyone here personally, plus everyone here has something in common with someone else, so its nice that we can be mature and sympathise. With that said, ill throw out some more.

I used to cut myself for fun in highschool. I still have several scars on my hands and arms from a boxcutter i used at work. That was back when i was more messed up due to my parents divorce, i didnt really talk to anyone about it, i think ive repressed alot of what went on, and i would convince myself that i could deal with it on my own, that pain is just an impulse, it didnt affect me if i wouldnt let it, so i would cut myself and condition myself to not feel it.

For 3 months i lived in Houston, mostly because i couldnt deal with life at home. So i moved in with a friend of mine and met alot of great people, I made more friends in those 3 months than i ever did all thru school, probably because i didnt have any reputation or pre existing notions to appease. It was like my double life, so i guess online is my tripple life

I am taking 2 summer courses because i wasnt able to afford the spring semester of college...long story, by taking more classes, i was able to get more financial aid, working and going to school is rough, but it must be done. My dad is supposed to pay for it, as per the divorce agreement, but hes also supposed to pay me child support too. :madfawk: what can ya do.

Im really into music lyrically, i like to look for the meaning behind songs, so i will post up a few quotes that tie into some of my/ your confessions:

"so they pulled your confidence down with those verbal discrepancies. Now and then you'll gain what they've lost through a challenge of unpronounced. pain is only a pulse if you just stop feeling it, you might be able to use the very thing that makes us up." -- Coheed and Cambria - Time Consumer ( listening to that right now.)

"May not listen to my own advice, It can be so overwhelming.
There are strains on every double life..But you won't hear me complain" -- The New Amsterdams - Every Double Life

 

1. i was into rice (body kits, wings, conversions, stickers) the first few years i was into cars
2. i dont want my car anymore
3.. i'll have to think of somethin else later

 

My sister had that at one point. Thats so weird, ive never heard of anyone else with it.

 

gay? relative?
That is weird

 

ok i guess i'll open up

1. i've had a lot of relationship insecutirites since my last boyfriend. i can't trust men anymore, and i have an incredible amount of trouble believing they actually care about love. i'm scared i'll never be happy again b/c i'll always be preoccupied that they are lying to me. its been 7 months since we broke up.

2. i love my dad a lot, but i never see him. thats completely my fault. we rarely talk, but when we do its always great. ever since i was 9 he's always lived far away, but they always offer to pay for plane tickets etc, just so they can see me. i don't like going to see them though. my lifestyle here is completely different than when i go see them, and i don't like it. its extremely shallow.

3.i have a really big birthmark on my neck. i got tortured as a child for it, and i secluded myself from people. even to this day i still prefer only a few friends, and keeping to myself. i've been given the opportunity to get it removed, but i can't bring myself to do it.

 

grotesque physical deformity? Cant have sex?
:werd:

 

don't be a dick

 

was it before you started in the PGA? :rick:

 

:werd:

 

I don't really have a 2" penis h: