ok i guess i'll open up

1. i've had a lot of relationship insecutirites since my last boyfriend. i can't trust men anymore, and i have an incredible amount of trouble believing they actually care about love. i'm scared i'll never be happy again b/c i'll always be preoccupied that they are lying to me. its been 7 months since we broke up.

2. i love my dad a lot, but i never see him. thats completely my fault. we rarely talk, but when we do its always great. ever since i was 9 he's always lived far away, but they always offer to pay for plane tickets etc, just so they can see me. i don't like going to see them though. my lifestyle here is completely different than when i go see them, and i don't like it. its extremely shallow.

3.i have a really big birthmark on my neck. i got tortured as a child for it, and i secluded myself from people. even to this day i still prefer only a few friends, and keeping to myself. i've been given the opportunity to get it removed, but i can't bring myself to do it.