until then, keep postin' :chuckles:

 

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I are too sleepy....

later y'all

 

:chuckles:

#2 correlates with #3

Sorry for that man... i kinda know how scared you must have felt. It never got that far but someone chased me into my own home when I was younger. It was the time when the "guy in the white van" was going around snatchin up kids.

*pats on back*

You un-balleresque but rather well-to-do man

 

holy crap i know you

 

ok, here goes.

there are a couple things about me i won't say because i dont feel comfortable talking about it when my wife doesn't even know.

1) all of you know my dad died 5 weeks ago today. we didnt have a very good relationship until recently, and even though everyone tells me he loved me and was so proud of me, every day i hate myself because i feel like a treated him way worse than he deserved.

2) i got a 26 on my act which allowed me to get a scholarship into college, but i started smoking weed, quit going to class, and dropped out after the first semester. i did so well in my first course of college algebra that i didn't even take the final and still made a C for the semester.

3) i have 9,000 dollars in debt that i want to pay off before my wife and i have children, which she wants really really bad. i want them bad also, but i dont want to have kids while him in debt, having them grow up in a household that has trouble making ends meet. like i did.

4) i never owned a piece of name brand clothing until the 9th grade, when i purchased it myself. nothing was ever handed to me by my parents, except sometimes underwear and socks while i was in high school. ive had jobs since i was 14 years old, started working at chevron. the owner treated me like crap but i was making money so i was happy. when i got older and still worked there (was there for 4 years on and off), i ended up stealing alot of money from him at one of his stores and thru his firecracker stand that i ran. i got 1500 from that and supposedly about 6k from his store. i have no idea where that money went, but i wish i'd've saved it :happysad:

5) my wife was sick for 2 years and spent most of that time in different hospitals and they never found out what was wrong with her. she doesn't really have any friends because she's lost most of them for varying reasons and therefore is scared to befrend new people because she's scared to lose them. she also lost the most important person to her (besides me), her niece because her sister married a complete trailer trash loser and moved to florida and doesn't allow her sister to visit anymore.

6) im a workaholic because of several reasons stated above. growing up in a poor household and having to do for myself made me like this. i guess its good, in a way. now i have to pay off all my debt

7) i wanted to kill myself once because i thought i'd never find anyone that loved me. i thought my parents hated me, and even my friends made fun of me all the time, then in my prime i was one of the most popular people in school, but still couldn't get a girl because of my looks. my current wife asked me to saides hawkins dance in my 10th grade year being nice and we ended up falling in love, we broke up a couple times but were drawn back to each other every time. i :heart: her.

8) ive owned 6 cars because i get tired of things too easily. i buy something and then it bores me and i have to have something new. its really bad and i hate doing it and i tell myself im keeping the car i have but i always end up selling it to get something "better" but its never better.

9) i have a horrible habit of biting my fingernails. its uncontrollable.

10) i treat my brother like crap (or so he says) but really all im trying to do is make him better his life. he used to be ok but he was really stubborn, then he started hanging around with the wrong crowd, got into drugs, voilence and shit. he's called me several times telling me he got a gun pulled on him, asking me to borrow my gusn and what not. no way. now he's on home incarceration because of burglary and has another court date in a couple weeks for stealing some shit out of a store. the only way he can get out of the trouble he put himself into is if he goes to some juvie boot camp then goes into the navy for 4 years. the worse part about is is he has ALOT of potential. he could be making alot of money but he'd rather have fun and ruin his life. he was in juvenile hall the morning my dad died. he didnt even get to say goodnight to him. i hate him for that and feel like if he was a better person my dad wouldn't've had so much grief in his last days. all he did was worry where jon was and wish he was in jail so he didnt have to go to sleep wondering if he was alive or not.

i could go on and on but ill stop. most people probably won't read all of what i posted anyway.

oh, and 11) i type over 100 words per minute, so typing all that didn't take me long.

 

oh, and i have more friends online than irl.

and i often times make plans then break them b/c mel never wants to do anything.

 

This thread became uber depressing with a sprinkle of funny with horny on the side...

 

i have an obession with racing. i love to race on and off the track.

 

Have you talked to her about it?


Honestly, don't marry someone that isn't giving you all of the love and committment that you deserve. Your future wife should adore you, and make her feeling clear to you.

You know where to find me if you wanna talk