use brick on self.

 

Room for one more? I probably do use the fact that I'm in the military and project myself as self-delusional when in fact I'm very lonely and somewhat depressed. Before the service, I would spend spend spend to fix it. However, being without that monetary cushion I can't even alleviate my problems with purchases and then that makes me more sad. Vicious cycle.

And now this that happened...well, I can't predict outcomes yet.

 

take a vacation
buy a new car
play golf

 

It's because you live in the NW. h: I'm joking of course. I don't really know your situation but have always assumed that your house is somewhat isolated and that you're probably home often because you are self employed and do freelance work. Is this true? If so, could a lack of frequent, meaningful human interaction be partially to blame?
I wholeheartedly agree. You've experienced a lot. Have you considered mentoring youth? Even other forms of volunteer work could give you a different sense of satisfaction that might help change your perspective of life right now.

I'm already assuming you're spending time with your kids when you have the chance. In any case, hope things look up.

 

John....i think you're just suffering from the lack of RSV. Like that in between time from when RSV was replaced by COD and H3. You'll feel better when RSV2 comes out :hugglez:

 

how often do you see the girls? maybe you need more interactions with them.

sometimes that lonely empty feeling hits you and it feels like crap, but you just need to surround yourself with people you love and care about and it is all good again.

 

Everyone has their own issues to iron out. When you face what's bugging you and conquer it, you gain confidence in yourself. Consistently overcome hardships and the confidence builds. Knock em down, one at a time.

Confidence breeds even more positive thoughts, then you're on your way.

 

it's alarming how many of you guys admit to spending money to make yourselves feel better. and i'm not saying i'm not the same by any means.

it makes me feel better - if just momentarily - to buy shit too. but it goes to show you how "successful" this mega blitz of adverts and marketing has been on our society.

fuck.

 

Happiness is overrated.

 

Best of luck dude. Sometimes its just the mood that you HAVE to experience to understand what happy is. If you understand happy, you must understand sad. Same with the hot/cold concept.

Dude, I get that way all the time but then evaluate why.
1.) I hate my job and that truly builds up on me and I leave the day on a sour note majority of the time.
2.) Not getting sleep due to school, work, gym....
3.) Getting stronger but not building the mass I want.

HOWEVER, if you step back and look at it, all those things are positive. Im paying my own way through school, I have a decent job with benefits and Im in pretty damn good shape. Its just how you look at it dude. Take some time to step outside the box and maybe change your thought process. A guy at my work told me once and I'll never forget this: "You can think about something in two different ways...either positive or negative, so why not make it a positive one?"

Best of luck dude. If all else fails, post nudes of ex-girlfriends in spite.