When i get down I just go hang with my buds

 

I dunno I guess my pussy is bleeding or something.

I think I just need a vacation for a couple days to clear my head a bit...hmm maybe a weekend at the mountain would be a good idea.

 

Me 3:happysad:

I feel lost sometimes, I think I need a hiatus at a Monastery. Live without all my material possessions and get back in touch with the world.

I wish I could shake my attachment to material things, fuckin media has warped my image of life...I don't need a big TV, or the latest gadgets...but

 

Shit I can't even buy my way out of a taco shop, at least you have moneys to spend

 

feelin lost ftw

 

i know how you feel man. ive been pretty down the past couple months too. i lost my job and my unemployment is about to run out. ive been going through my savings trying to buy my way out as well but it just aint working. ive been traveling a lot too, just trying to get away but it doesnt help either.

 

Move to Japan. After 10 day there, it makes you realize how much of fucking assholes we are. We are a mean country. everyone in Japan is super nice and laid back.

 

I've started feeling a lot better being home for a while. Spending time with my son, and helping get the house in order. Now I'm going back to work, but I know I don't HAVE to work a ton of overtime because I'm not carrying the whole financial load on my back. fortunately we have family that can watch my son so we don't need daycare. My wife will be off 1 weekday and Sunday plus I'm off weekends. Daycare is a big issue for us due to the rising incidents of abuse/neglect/danger, as well as sickness. I like the thought of socializing, but not at the risk/benefit.

We're planning monthly getaways to relax and do things for ourselves. I think I want to join a gym once we get back on track too, I never felt better then when I got in shape.

Can't sweat the little stuff, if it won't matter tomorrow, a month from now, or a year from now...why bother wasting energy on it?

Try to find out what's eating you, there is always something that starts the snowball rolling. For me it was my job, it made me unhappy, and as bad as our situation has gotten I haven't been happier in months. I'm not as happy as I was in 2005, but it's getting there I'm trying to stay positive and active on changing my habits. I think you kind of have to hit that LOW and feel like shit to really get that drive/motivation to do better. I'm motivated but I need something to direct that drive at to really pursue a life of happiness and fulfillment.

Damn that shit was deeph:

 

We all go through periods where we feel a little more lonely, and feel like the world is a little more harsh. Last year I fialed with a chick, lost my job, and turned 25 which made me uber emo, but I spent new years with some of my closest friends, and it's going to be a great year.

 

I'm right there with you john.

Things were absolutely perfect a year ago. I lost my girlfriend, I feel like i've grown apart from some of my friends, and I absolutely hate where I live right now. It's hard to be positive. Things get better and I start feeling happy again, and then it's right back in the shitter. End feeling-sorry-for-myself post.