I've started feeling a lot better being home for a while. Spending time with my son, and helping get the house in order. Now I'm going back to work, but I know I don't HAVE to work a ton of overtime because I'm not carrying the whole financial load on my back. fortunately we have family that can watch my son so we don't need daycare. My wife will be off 1 weekday and Sunday plus I'm off weekends. Daycare is a big issue for us due to the rising incidents of abuse/neglect/danger, as well as sickness. I like the thought of socializing, but not at the risk/benefit.

We're planning monthly getaways to relax and do things for ourselves. I think I want to join a gym once we get back on track too, I never felt better then when I got in shape.

Can't sweat the little stuff, if it won't matter tomorrow, a month from now, or a year from now...why bother wasting energy on it?

Try to find out what's eating you, there is always something that starts the snowball rolling. For me it was my job, it made me unhappy, and as bad as our situation has gotten I haven't been happier in months. I'm not as happy as I was in 2005, but it's getting there I'm trying to stay positive and active on changing my habits. I think you kind of have to hit that LOW and feel like shit to really get that drive/motivation to do better. I'm motivated but I need something to direct that drive at to really pursue a life of happiness and fulfillment.

Damn that shit was deeph: