masturbate more

 

I honestly feel you man. If you really got to know me personally I'm a pretty fucked up guy. I'm never happy. Spending money to get the things I've always wanted gives me a temporary fix. I turned into someone who only cares about himself and really doesn't give a shit about others.

 

I think we are both in the same place :happysad: I tend to do the same thing with buying my way out of depression.

 

you guys should try helping out the less fortunate
donate your time at a homeless shelter are youth center

It really makes you put your life in prospective

The world is a pretty fawked up place right now!
values and many morals are out the window and lost in the wind.

 

Yea thats how I am. Then I come here and post it up like anyone really gives a shit. h:

The gf doesn't help either. We've been together for over 5 years and we do nothing but fight. She told me for the 25707502730236th time tonight that she didn't want to be with me and I honestly feel the same. I've learned however to just ignore her and dont show that I strongly agree because it angers her more and she ends up breaking something. No I'm not scared. I've just reached the point of I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.

Sometimes I think about all the fucked up shit shes done to me early on and during our relationship then wonder why I didnt run away from her then. I saw the warning signs and totally ignored them. But that didnt stop me from returning the favor....several times. h:

 

Go snowboarding

 

Oh just read your other post.

Umm go bowling with some friends

Watch cartoons with your kids.

 

Well, here's how I felt, say, 6 months ago:

hate my job
in a shitty, non-reciprocating relationship
Not in control of my life--can't handle normal events as they come
spending too much money
boozing myself into an early grave

Now, I still feel kinda empty... but I'm no longer frantic and stressed, and I am probably as non-depressed as a guy like me can get (not exactly care-free h: ). As gay as it sounds, my daily affirmations along with some lifestyle changes have done me a world of good. Count your blessings, John, you're a good guy with a lot going for you. Depression is a normal part of life, and it comes naturally. Happiness takes more work.

 

Hello! Break up, post nudes.

Seriously though, that sounds exactly like my relationship towards the end. You know its coming, just rip the band-aid off and move on. That shit will drain your soul.

 

Hate on the hater in your head that keeps telling you things should be like this or that.

I went through asshole for awhile. Getting out of it is like being able to wake yourself up from a lucid nightmare. It's hard, but you gotta want it.

This shit leads to heart disease. Pull out when you can.

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