Room for one more? I probably do use the fact that I'm in the military and project myself as self-delusional when in fact I'm very lonely and somewhat depressed. Before the service, I would spend spend spend to fix it. However, being without that monetary cushion I can't even alleviate my problems with purchases and then that makes me more sad. Vicious cycle.

And now this that happened...well, I can't predict outcomes yet.