At least she's happy, i was just saying she's 84 and completely independent and has always loved her life

 

I'm 52 and a far cry from having my life be over. I'm not afraid of dying I've already faced it more times than most. I live my life like I always have. I am a ticking timebomb right now, having contracted Hepatitus C about 30 years ago. About a year ago I threw up 3 liters of Blood, I had been taken to the ER and when they were trying to insert a nasal tube that was when I threw up the blood, into a pan, that's how we know how much there was. They expected me at the very least to pass out but I fought on and didn't, not so much for me, but for my wife and son.

To hear people say that life is over at a certain age is BS. I think that thinking like that makes one a loser.

I've been shot at, been on a boat that almost sank about a 100 miles offshore, been in a couple of car accidents. When I was 7 a medic got a commendation for saving my life after I had been stung by several rather angry hornets. Don't throw rocks at a hole in the ground that they are coming out off, it tends to piss them off.

 

I don't want to be a lifeless body without any way of communicating or actually being able to take care of myself. That's probablly a living hell.

 

personally, I am terrified of death.

I've already lost some one whom I'd loved very much to suicide, and day in and day out I'm not sure if it hurts more to know they are really gone, or that they were miserable with their life and that was the only way out. I terrorize myself because i feel like there was something more i could have done for him not to put the gun to his head, and i also wonder "why?" and "what was he thinking?" Its been 4 years, 5 years April 15. I am no where near the healing point, and we were only together for an year and a half. Would you want to put your loved ones through something similiar? I would want anybody to suffer but some times them being there can comfort both people- when the mutual love is exchanged.
Its hard to deal with the passing of someone important.

Even when we put my dog to sleep, cause she was almost 18 years old, i cried for days. I was very content with her being there even though she was suffering. Call me selfish, but i loved my dog very much, she was not only a companion, but my friend. I could tell her anything and ofcourse she wouldn't naturally repeat it... gave me a sense of bonding.

 

How old are you? That shouldn't even be thought of until you're atleast 70- because health fades so fast.


My best friend's great grandmother was 105 years old when she died, and she JUST DIED one night... perfectly healthy- walked, exercised, did pretty much everything any other person would do. She was not mourned, because she'd been around for a while- and everyone knew her time was coming and faced the facts. She wanted to be remembered, not mourned- no crying- no depression- only happiness. If you eat right, stay healthy- you never know how long you're going to live

 

If I can only live by being hooked up to a machine, and I'm a burden on my loved ones, pull my plug.

 

It is a religious issue as well.

 

I kinda welcome death. Maybe thats why I smoke.

I dunno, I've lived enough. Granteded theres more to live, I've still lead a happy life to this point.

I could die tomorrow and be happy.