Interesting thread. Here's mine:

1. I'm 27 years old and I've never had a girlfriend because I'm too damn insecure (I think I've been that way since elementary school).

2. Sad movies make me cry.

3. Antidepressants help, but depression still owns me.

 

I like girls, but do you really think I would do what I say online? This is the internet, and things shouldn't be taken seriously. I don't need help cause I would never hurt or touch any girl of any age, in any way that would make her feel uncomfortable.

Derek talks :ghey:, but does that mean he is :ghey: in real life? Its quite sad that your a cool guy in person, yet you feel this wayh:. If you think even half of what I say is disturbing, then your in for a suprise when you get into the military, especially when you are out on liberty. Perhaps I'm open minded because of the military, but this is the internet, and this is a forum board, to have fun. My online personality is totally the opposite in person, which you've seen yourself in person at the Norm Reeves meet. If I was perverted, or a pedophile, then I wouldn't be here right now. There is nothing wrong with looking, and that is all that I do. Also my definition of underage is 14-18, and if I was anything like how I am on HAN, then I wouldn't be on HAN. I would be at my local high school picking up girls, but I'm not. I'm here, having fun and that is all. So get a life if you think all that is said on HAN is 100% the truth, cause its not..

Everybody on HAN hates another member on HAN, for some reasons or another. However I do not let it bother me, but unfortunately it has affected you. My advice would be to ignore it and move on. Unless you meet the person in person, then don't conclude somebody's personality on what he or she may say on HAN. Don't judge a person by their cover.

 

do what you want & to hell with what other people think. i shaved mine 13+ years ago on a dare & liked the way it looked & feeled so i've left it that way. almost every person i know now never even knew me with hair.

i'm 165 lbs, 5'7" & not muscular at all, but everybody i know doesn't think any different about it. i think its more about what attitude you have....if you look like it makes you uncomfortable then it'll make others uncomfortable.

i work in a job where i have 1 on 1 contact w/ the public going into their homes (adsl install for phone company) & have never had anybody feel uncomfortable w/ the way i look. maybe i have a confident off-putting smile :dunno:

 

i've got another deep one kinda on this topic:

my parents were divorced when i was 12. i stayed with my mom. she got everything. she worked 60-70 hrs a week & i never saw my dad for about the first 5 or 6 years. it took me moving out & going to college 100 miles away for us to reconnect...i'd stay with him when i came home for weekends.

he had heart problems (4 heartattacks). he died when i was 22 (1992) & i was in the icu his last night (heartattack #4) & even though he was heavily sedated, i got to tell him i loved him & he squeezed my hand. he died 4 hours later.

when he died, i was actually happy.....he wasn't the same person the last year or so. he was always a wild person. really into cars & actaully hung out in town w/ people my age street racing & shit. people were always amazed to find out he was my DAD. the last cople of years of his life, he was mostly homeridden cause he only had 30% use of his heart & couldn't even goto the mailbox & back w/out stopping to catch his breath. that's why i was happy when he died...for him not me.

i think about him alot & people that knew him well tell me i'm just like him which makes me smile inside but also makes me a little sad, too.

i have to stop now cause my hands arrre shaking & i can't type anyy=more

 

That's terrible. I am sorry to hear about your loss. My fiance is going through the same thing with her dad and his heart right now. I am really tired of people dying that are close to me.:sad:

 

just a good friend...not even gonna try cause i wanna move away from here & she's got a daughter & can't move more that 100 miles away till her daughter's eighteen cause of her cutody agreement

 

Wow... everyone's getting so deep all of a sudden. So many of you have actually made me cry. I can't imagine living with the pain many of you carry every day.

I guess I could open up a little more too..

1. In high school, I was anorexic. I never got to be skeletal, but I was very thin (weighed about 125, and I'm 5'9"). I basically ate an apple a day, and that was it. As a result, I still think like an anorexic and every day I'm tempted to go back to that. It felt safe and was the one thing I could control.

2. Oddly enough, I'm now heavier than I ever have been in my life. I'm nowhere near obese, I guess I'm what most of you cacs would call thick... but it upsets me more than anything.

3. I am really insecure, and I know it pisses off my husband. I am deathly afraid he will cheat on me, even though he never has and has said time and time again he never would. I still can't shake the fear of it.

I guess that's enough for today

 

and me likey the TALL girls :boink:

 

True, true.

Geez, Some of you peopel really have some sad shit in your lives, I hate to have to think that seemingley decent people have to go through all that. My best wishes that you all can get through what pains you. :happysad:

 

i just want to say thanks to everyone on here for opening up, sharing stories, making everyone feel welcome and comfortable.

thanks to nopd and rich for the responses earlier, and especially to derek for sharing your relationship story, thanks for understanding bro.

reading this thread is making me stronger. a lot of you have really dealt with a lot of tough shit in your lives, and your perseverance is helping me find myself and my path. while i haven't had to deal with personal losses or any tragedies, you guys are making me stronger. thank you again.