Wow... everyone's getting so deep all of a sudden. So many of you have actually made me cry. I can't imagine living with the pain many of you carry every day.

I guess I could open up a little more too..

1. In high school, I was anorexic. I never got to be skeletal, but I was very thin (weighed about 125, and I'm 5'9"). I basically ate an apple a day, and that was it. As a result, I still think like an anorexic and every day I'm tempted to go back to that. It felt safe and was the one thing I could control.

2. Oddly enough, I'm now heavier than I ever have been in my life. I'm nowhere near obese, I guess I'm what most of you cacs would call thick... but it upsets me more than anything.

3. I am really insecure, and I know it pisses off my husband. I am deathly afraid he will cheat on me, even though he never has and has said time and time again he never would. I still can't shake the fear of it.

I guess that's enough for today