ok i have read this whole thread...truly amazing shit on here. a lot of it saddens me but i feel like it's definitely helping me. thank you HAN, the OGs, the whole community for helping me out.

ok here goes...

1. i have lurked here mostly since i registered, but i spend more and more time in the basement. although i don't know any of you, reading your stories makes me happy, i'm just too shy or feel weird trying to chime in or whatnot because i don't know any of you personally. what it comes down to is that i spend more time on HAN than i do with my friends, who have become more and more distanced from me each day.

2. i'm a loner, always was, growing up as an only child. i haven't been happy since i was a little kid.

3. i've never had to deal with personal losses (besides grandparents) and definitely am my own worst enemy.

4. my parents have always supported me financially and mentally but all i want to do is run away from them. i don't live with them (i live at my college town) but they still support me and i don't want any more handouts. i would rather struggle to make it. i told my mom this the other night.

5. i got great SAT scores, got into a decent school, i'm doing mechanical engineering, the only thing that interests me as far as school goes, but i've always been on academic probation and hate school anyway.

6. getting dumped by my ex of 2 years who i had totally fallen for so she could f*ck a "cooler and more popular" kid has left me seriously depressed and lacking any confidence. while i am not cool, i consider myself smart and know that i will have a good future. getting dumped for someone like him (the exact opposite) has totally messed me up. i never had a problem getting girls and was always the dumper, but ever since i can't even approach a girl or anything.

7. school and girls have left me seriously depressed for a long time. all i cling to is my music (emo) that lets me escape it all. i spent most of my time alone.

 

:rofl: @ NOPD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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6. I've always wanted to shave my head bald, but was always afraid and plus my gf wouldn't approve h: maybe if i was 185 lbs full of muscles then i would look

 

i didnt know anyone on this board personally either, but i just started posting a lot and eventually met a few people. so dont feel any apprehension, everyone here is cool

it's weird how a lot of people were great students in high school, but somehow end up on academic probation. in college i didnt give a sh*t, and just did the bare minimum to pass. they were the worst years of my life.

i think it's great that you want to break away from your parents' support and become independent. that's a huge step in growing up and becoming an adult.

 

i hate shaving my head....it's because rogaine wont work for me :happysad:

(i also dated a FOB, and got cheated on too h: )

 

tony's with a bipolar bitch?????? :shocked:




jk :fawk:

 

ahhaha that's my younger sister

I was referring to my older sister.

 

I feel you on this bro. I was with someone for 2yrs to the day, she started talking to this guy who was a complete loser, I mean exact opposite from me and it made me feel like crap because I was thinking "this is the type of person she is going to after me?" I started doubting who I was.. After all, this guy wasn't doing anything with his life, was an asshole, and ended up getting fired from their job due to stealing out of the register.. whereas I was going to school, working, and plan to attend law school, I know I will do good in life if I don't give up. Anyhow, didn't speak to her for a year and a half, but we finally did and talked about everything, but as friends. Apparently, she didn't get with that guy because she liked him, but rather that she used him as a means for her and I to break up because we needed to. Which I agreed we needed to break up. Anyhow, I will let you know this, since I went through the same thing as you about other girls, it gets better, just give it time. Try to spend time learning about yourself, I know I did and definitely like myself better now than before. Hope things get only better for you.

 

don't sweat it, like stated in my #4 both of them girls...I guess i can start a #7

7. My first two ex gfs stated in #4 banged another guy while i was with them, didn't find out later until after the fact. h:

 

- I masturbate while I talk to you guy's on AIM
- I shoot rock
- I really have TWO...yes count them...TWO cacs
- I'm really Ron Jeremy


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