My friend from way back in 8th grade committed suicide last week. I heard it this week from a homie. Last time I saw her was about 2-3 months ago. And she seemed fine, everything was going great for her, since she got accepted to the college she watned to go. She had a boyfriend who treated her real nice. Her family didn't know why she did it. It just seemed like everything she had going was fine. I dont know what to think or do right now. Im kinda teary, I've had it in my head all week and just can't seem to get it out. Things are getting wierd now because I don't know how the future will be like for me now. It seems like I've changed the way I handle myself in person now. And try to be nice to everyone. Anyone ever had this happen to them? I feel like im the only one in the world right now.

 

Sorry bro.
I find that when life gets me down, theres always gonna be an upside. Sometimes it takes a little longer than expected, but it'll be there.
It also helps to talk about how you feel.

 

But the thing from what I hear, she acted normal and was out of the blue type thing. Im just wondering to myself why???

 

i really dont think its out of the blue. something like suicide really got to build up in you.

i think its normal to act the way you are....we are constantly changing with our surroundings. when i was your age i was really scared of my future, and im even more scared now. trying to find a place in this world is hard...BUT you will eventually find out.

in highschool, i was very immature. i cut school, did drugs, disrespected people....all that crap my brother is going though. right after i graduated...sometime hit me. maybe the same thing thats hitting you right now. i went through this weird phase where i would just have to space out for a minute. and gradually, i grew out of doing drugs, im all for school now, and i have a lot of respect of people. i just really matured.

i just have to say...dont worry, youll be fine.

 

something obviously was wrong and no one caught it... i just went through a whole week at school to train to be an RA and we did a lot on suicide.. there is always a reason...

i'm very sorry for your loss.. there are lots of places on the internet for support or you can find a local #.. if you'd like.. you can email me and i can give you more information.. it's 2am and i'm a bit too tired to get my training notebook... :Huggles: