i really dont think its out of the blue. something like suicide really got to build up in you.

i think its normal to act the way you are....we are constantly changing with our surroundings. when i was your age i was really scared of my future, and im even more scared now. trying to find a place in this world is hard...BUT you will eventually find out.

in highschool, i was very immature. i cut school, did drugs, disrespected people....all that crap my brother is going though. right after i graduated...sometime hit me. maybe the same thing thats hitting you right now. i went through this weird phase where i would just have to space out for a minute. and gradually, i grew out of doing drugs, im all for school now, and i have a lot of respect of people. i just really matured.

i just have to say...dont worry, youll be fine.