well, last night i was stopped at the train track waiting for the train to cross. it was a long train. i shut my car off, and sat in my car watching the train go by. i was the only one around. and i thought to myself. i thought about how good life is today for people of north america. yet everyone complains about something and they all want stuff better than they have it. i was reminded of a paper i wrote in english class a while back about the Great Depression and how people used to ride the freight train all over the country. i couldn't believe the people back then. hoping on a train in freezing weather (i live in Canada). those people were full of determination. if people today were faced with that, i dont know what we would do. I guess im just saying how life evolves. its changed alot from 1940 - present. how will it look in another 60 years? people will just get more and more lazy; life is going to get alot easier; etc, etc. im not saying that im perfect, but ya, i dunno. sometimes i dont want to live in this world, but i fight on because i want to make a difference

 

In 60 years most likely all passenger cars are outlawed by Bush Jr and only Gigaton SUVs are allowed. Sports car is an ancient forgotten relic. We don't use oil anymore but an alternative energy that is 10 times as wasteful and manufactured by Bush Energy Inc.

LOL.

Yes we do get lazier. Talking to fellow human about driving stick and they all think stick shift is extremely difficult and only for the people who have nothing better to do; they prefer talking on cell while driving.

 

the grass is always greener on the other side

 

Same here... but.. do you mean.. sometimes you want to die? Cause I wouldn't want to die.. and I don't think that's what you mean...just... another place in another time, right?

 

exactly. im happy with who i am as a person, but i hate the way society in general behaves. nowhere is perfect though and nowhere ever will be. I get mad sometimes at how people are treated, how people are just so stupid. i dunno, its a weird psychological thing going on with me. for example: living in a country that used to be involved in slavery. and it wasn't really a long time ago. living in a country that had different bathrooms for black people. also not that long ago. living in a country where government has a say in what gay people can do. if i were immortal, it would be my goal to do my part in creating a perfect society. and i know salvery has come and gone, but the fact that it occured is hard to think of. well, enough ranting

 

:werd:

No other way to put it... just :werd:

 

You mean.... Europe?

 

want to appreciate the north american way of life? make a trip to india, africa, or heck even mexico, and look at how things are for people in those countries. (im not talking rich people because they're fine, but the middle class in those nations.)

 

I Don't want to die either I am really scared and depressed right now. :wtc: I would want to be in another time; I would want to be born again so my life would be started over again.

 

I don't want to die. I am getting really scared and depressed thinking about it. I am scared because I am not going to know when it happens, we will be here one second and the next we are not. I am also scared of not knowing how it is going to feel like to be dead and the thought of no heaven or hell, I would want to be some place and be able to see other people that died. I don't want to feel nothing; that is going to be too wierd. :wtc:

I wish that when we died we would just start our previous life over again so you can fix all of the things you did wrong. I don't think I should be thinking about this right now, I am too young to be thinking about death, when I am older my views might be different but for right now I am getting depressed thinking about it and I don't know what to do?
I really need to stop thinking about it, I am getting more and more depressed thinking about it. I mean I am not able to do stuff that I did before, and I really don't even laugh at funny stuff anymore and things are not really that fun anymore. Everyday I think about death I get more and more scared. I really, really, really don't want to die. Sometimes I get so scared, depressed, and upset that I hit the wall with both of my hands really hard and just keep doing it until my they start to hurt.

I guess that I am trying to seek pity from others. Also I think that if I keep thinking about it, it won't happen, or someone will tell me that it won't happen and it won't.
I guess I will make an appointment with a doctor this week because I am getting tired of this. I am only 18 I shouldnt be thinking about this, I know it could happen anytime but I am too young. I should be thinking about getting a girl friend and starting a family down the road.

What I also hate is that I am never going to be alive again or never know what is going on or anything and that is what is scaring me and making me depressed. I know when the time comes it comes. I guess the reason I keep thinking about it is that if I do keep thinking about it then it won't happen. And another reason I keep thinking about it when something gets in my head it is hard for me to stop thinking about it, it usally stops when the thing happens which I don't want that to be my reason to stop thinking about it this time. Like I said previously I think I am going to set up a doctors appointment so I can get this fixed. I am really scared and depressed right now. When ever I think about it I get sick to my stomach and I almost start to :cry: I don't know what to do but I get more and more depressed everyday thinking about it and I am getting tired of it. All I want to do is sleep all day so I won't think about it.

I am starting to get really ****ing scared that I am starting to go :crazy: I really don't want to die. If I knew how it felt then I wouldn't be as scared as I am.

What I also hate is knowing that one of my parents are going to die before the other. So whenever I see one of my parents I am always going to be thinking about the other one and that is going to get really upset and depressed. I also am getting depressed knowing that my brother is going to die before me of vise versa.

I don't know what to do I am still thinking about it and I am getting more depressed. Sometimes I am into deep thinking and I get even more depressed because it is actually going to happen, sometimes I think of it as something that might or might not happen.