I don't want to die. I am getting really scared and depressed thinking about it. I am scared because I am not going to know when it happens, we will be here one second and the next we are not. I am also scared of not knowing how it is going to feel like to be dead and the thought of no heaven or hell, I would want to be some place and be able to see other people that died. I don't want to feel nothing; that is going to be too wierd. :wtc:

I wish that when we died we would just start our previous life over again so you can fix all of the things you did wrong. I don't think I should be thinking about this right now, I am too young to be thinking about death, when I am older my views might be different but for right now I am getting depressed thinking about it and I don't know what to do?
I really need to stop thinking about it, I am getting more and more depressed thinking about it. I mean I am not able to do stuff that I did before, and I really don't even laugh at funny stuff anymore and things are not really that fun anymore. Everyday I think about death I get more and more scared. I really, really, really don't want to die. Sometimes I get so scared, depressed, and upset that I hit the wall with both of my hands really hard and just keep doing it until my they start to hurt.

I guess that I am trying to seek pity from others. Also I think that if I keep thinking about it, it won't happen, or someone will tell me that it won't happen and it won't.
I guess I will make an appointment with a doctor this week because I am getting tired of this. I am only 18 I shouldnt be thinking about this, I know it could happen anytime but I am too young. I should be thinking about getting a girl friend and starting a family down the road.

What I also hate is that I am never going to be alive again or never know what is going on or anything and that is what is scaring me and making me depressed. I know when the time comes it comes. I guess the reason I keep thinking about it is that if I do keep thinking about it then it won't happen. And another reason I keep thinking about it when something gets in my head it is hard for me to stop thinking about it, it usally stops when the thing happens which I don't want that to be my reason to stop thinking about it this time. Like I said previously I think I am going to set up a doctors appointment so I can get this fixed. I am really scared and depressed right now. When ever I think about it I get sick to my stomach and I almost start to :cry: I don't know what to do but I get more and more depressed everyday thinking about it and I am getting tired of it. All I want to do is sleep all day so I won't think about it.

I am starting to get really ****ing scared that I am starting to go :crazy: I really don't want to die. If I knew how it felt then I wouldn't be as scared as I am.

What I also hate is knowing that one of my parents are going to die before the other. So whenever I see one of my parents I am always going to be thinking about the other one and that is going to get really upset and depressed. I also am getting depressed knowing that my brother is going to die before me of vise versa.

I don't know what to do I am still thinking about it and I am getting more depressed. Sometimes I am into deep thinking and I get even more depressed because it is actually going to happen, sometimes I think of it as something that might or might not happen.