I took my meds for about a year and after that Ive been ok. The best thing to do is always start from scratch... New friends, new habbits, new b/f or g/f. Thats what I did. My last friends are now drug delaers, my last g/f is now pregnant and I am no longer doing any kinds of drugs.

 

I used to suffer from depression, probably the best few years because I was very creative and wrote tons and tons of stuff. Now that its all over I haven't written a single poem in 3 years.

 

<--- On Wellbutrin now. It's good stuff! :thumbup:

 

I don't know how I uhm, stopped being depressed but I did it somehow :thinking: It's maybe because I don't think about what other people do/think/say. Helps a lot. I don't even argue too much with people anymore--most of what I thought was important really wasn't important, stressed me out even more.

I like tiny tarts and fruity runts.

 

It isn't just the girl that has me depressed. The parents are all over me about school and shit, I owe thousands in car repair bills, I can't find a ****ing job to help pay for said bills, and have been getting treated like shit by my family. And people try and tell me I have plenty of reasons I should be happy...

 

:happysad: When I take over the world I'll be sure to fix this all for you. Just start slowly at trying to fix some of these things. Why are they all over you about school? What's more important, this girl that is taking up a ton of time and probably won't matter in the end, or your parents who are going to always be your parents. Finding a job is tough right now. Maybe you should sell the car and get something cheaper to pay for the bills.

 

I got hit with depression a couple of years ago from a nasty little breakup then subsequently being fucked over hard, but refused to take any meds...I don't need false happiness. Eventually I was able to put things in perspective and I've never been happier than I am now. Don't worry...eventually you'll get over it. We all do.

 

damn, that sucks. If you know that, you need to cut your losses and move on.


welcome to life in the real world.

just do the best you can, give 100% to whatever you do and the rest will work itself out.

 

I tried moving on. I don't want to be with any other person though. I want to be with her. *sigh*

And thanks to something that happened last night, I can't do the one thing that keeps me calm--drive. I have lost the use of my car except for transportation to and from school, and to my dad's house.

 

I was last year for a few months... wasnt pretty. I got over it and had a great summer and a great last few months.

Last week though shit has been getting me down, just keeps on piling up and doesnt seem like it would stop. Seems like anything that can go wrong has, and I know this following week wont be too easy either, driving 2500miles in 4 days. But I'll get through it cause I know it will get better after that.