ok...so this ex gf who I dated for two years calls me crying and asks if I can come up to K-zoo cause she has nobody else around and she needs to talk/see/hugs etc, her bf broke up with her whatever....so I am like aight whatever I will be up there in 2 hours cause that is how long it takes from farmington.....so I get up there we do the consoling thing...end up watchin some tv hangin out...now I was gonna crash at her place on the couch, but come bed time she is all like...you can sleep in bed with me...jokinly says dont worry I wont molest you etc...well I totally still have mad feelings for this chick so I got kinda not wanting to be there cause I didnt exactly want to get led on as to her having feelings back just because she was in a vulnerable state...so I am like..ummm I think I am just gonna go ahead and head back home...and she was all like oh come on...stay...etc....so I had to get out of there...so now she wants me to come up and go to the bar with her and some friends tomorrow nite, but I am worried if I get too many drinks in me I am gonna get a loose tongue and start tellin her all this shit that I have couped up, and we have spent so long building back up our friendship that if she were to be like wow creepy or be like uhhh I dont want that...then it would totally fuck everything....so yeah

 

stay away from her then

 

yeah, that would be the smart thing to do, but its hard to just stay away from somebody you really like ya know.

 

Tell her how you really feel. You'll never know what could happen unless you do it. You owe it to yourself.

 

yeah....I just got off the phone with my friend lauren, and she and I came to the same conclusion....as much as it would suck to possibly mess with our friendship I need to not be a pussy and talk to her aout it.

 

Self-control mi amigo.

 

I am gonna go up and see whats up in a sober enviroment so as to have an actual conversation, and not just be drunk and have that drunk talk that people have. So we shall see how it all turns out.

 

Well you seem to hold your liquor pretty well, don't be too nervous I guess.

 

yeah, I think I just need to get it out there at least and see what happens. Whatever is supposed to happen will happen.

 

Yeap. You'll be fine man.