Originally posted by sexygreencivic
I'll get deep here too
(1) I had low self esteem almost my whole life because i was molested when i was 4 years old by the babysitters son (he was 15). I blamed myself for a very long time for his problem, partly because my mother was extremely abusive towards me, and put me down a lot, and partly because she was never there, and worked so much I felt alone in the world.
(2) I had a boyfriend from when i was 13, to almost 15, he was 6 years older than I. He was murdered April 15, 1999 and I blamed myself because the murder was drug related. I sank into severe depression for 3 years trying to figure out what i did wrong. I thought if i had only did something sooner about his drug problem, maybe he would still be alive today. Took me a total of 4 years to come to reality that he is really and truelly gone, and ITS NOT MY FAULT.
(3) I was picked on very bad in school because my mother and I was poor. I never wore name brand clothing, never had spending money, never had anything. I remember being spit on by a girl who said I looked homeless (I was 11 years old), I was beat up a lot in middle school because i was "different" or basically i had no money to buy nice things. The first nice thing i bought was my civic, and wether or not it is a common car, to me it is a nice vehicle. I was called many names from elementary to my sophmore year in high school, when i finally developed self esteem. Now I am just thick skinned, and yes I have an anger problem i am getting help for. I go to anger management classes, and I really like them.
:wtc: I'll be your friend.