Only two people here know whats going on with me. One happens to know more. Im in a huge situation that is tearing me up inside on a daily basis. It makes me so happy to think about but at the same time its eating me up. I hate how the heart works sometimes because its so hard to control emotions when they develop. I have other options, which I tested last night, but that confirmed how I originally felt - I'm in love with a girl that doesnt know it yet and would probably be best given our situation.

Vague? Yes.
Kinda private? Yes.
Why? It has to be that way right now.
I promise I'll explain later.