Had to tell my girl that things got awkward tonight. Sucks, but here's the story.

When we met, she was coming out of a long term relationship with a guy whom she relocated for. Recently single and devoid of friends, she was uncertain of what she wanted. I enjoyed her company so I offered my friendship and let time determine any romantic interests. Turns out we slowly developed from a friendship into the early stages of a long term relationship. But this weekend, an odd wrench was thrown in which ended what we had.

During the week we decided I would spend the weekend at her apartment, and take the time to get to know each other better. I was agreeable as it was the logical next step to going on dates and staying over a few times a week. Her best friend and roommate was also around who she invited to spend time with us. After a late night on Friday where I played designated driver, we decided to enjoy a low key Saturday evening filled with board games, movies and wine at the apartment. The conversation was going well and we were in my opinion building a better connection between ourselves. But as the night wore on, her inhibitions dropped and she asked me if it would bother me if she hooked up with her roommate. I am not a prudish individual, but I voiced my concern that it may put a strain on a young relationship. She assured me it wouldn't. After a bit more discussion -- of which the wine likely contributed to, we set ground rules and agreed.

The next day, we woke up with regrets from what happened the night before. In her words, "I can't believe you don't hate me. I drank a lot, smoked (cigarettes) a lot, did my roommate and slept until 2:00". Needless to say, the experience was a bit awkward for all of us and she expected I would leave in anger before she woke up. I told her that I had anticipated doing so, but I was still around when she woke up. Although I wasn't sure why. We went to lunch, talked, and it came out that her and her friend may potentially hook up with one another again. While most guys would jump on the situation, I am a fan of monogamy. Male or female, you are still having sex and developing some attachment to another individual. I am confident that I am the only guy she wants to be with. But add a woman into the situation -- particularly one she lives with, and I am uncomfortable. While I want to believe that it was a one-time occurrence attributed to alcohol, I had to end it.

But I got my HAN SS gift which made the day much better