day to day im living life regretting all the shit ive done
i was young and dumb
didnt think about my actions when i held the heat that i was packin
shouldve known the pain that i cause by reacting
they wouldnt leave u alone
these questions they kept on askin me
even tho u dunno the life i went through
know my missions at war
at my battlefield stand soldiers bringin pain
penetrating deeper than a sword im a rider from the start
visions of my body, soul, and mind bein apart
never know when i go
so i keep a picture of my family in my heart
all my bright days are gone
creepin in the dark for too long
feel my anger feel my pain feel my struggle while all my troubles remain
aint it strange they take my homies and not the foes
they take my loved ones and not the hoes
and they blame me when i explode
losing control emptying my clips screaming fuck the world
the world will never see so they judging me
raised by the thugs and gs
hatin cuz i grew up differently
deep inside they envy me
but they never realize this life i lead and they never know