Definetly been there, just once though. Im sure you all remember the threads about my girl breaking up with my literally 2 days before my birthday. 2 years just thrown away like it was nothing. I cried for nights, quit my job, basically quit life for a couple of days while I was trying to sort things out. I finally had found the strength to get up and do things, but I didn't want to be around anyone. Someone had convinced me to come over and talk about things one evening, except I never made it there. While on the freeway, I just got hit with a wave of emotion and floored the car as fast as it would go. There is nothing like speeding along at 115 mph straddling the white line, ready to jerk the wheel to end it all.

To this day, I still struggle, definetly not as bad as I did 7 months ago, but I still deal with it in different ways. I spend alot of money, whether its there or not, to keep me happy. I know its only gonna last so long until I get myself into a deeper rut than I am in now, but I at least realize that and am trying to work myself out of this phase.

Alot of people helped me through it, heck.. even some of you did.. but you are all still jerks

I sent my ex a letter the other day, don't know if she will even read it, but it at least made me able to finally have an inner peace with myself.

Keep strong bro.