actually, I can honestly say no, and that I've changed.

I know for sure I've changed, because I used to have a hard time holding up emotionally around her. the last few times we've hung out, I broke down crying over the whole thing. last night felt like normal again. I didn't cry, and actually we both had a lot of fun.

she's a damn good girl, real smart, real attractive, totally wife-able. I had cold feet before. we were together 2.5 years, talked about marrage and living together. I just freaked out, and between me pushing away and her going through alot of personal change (work, friends, turning 21, etc), it just seemed like a good idea to take some time off. I wasn't really happy about it, it wasn't my idea to seperate, but ultimately it did us both a lot of good.

we already have plans to go to my company post-holiday party, so its a step in the right direction. its just something that'll take time.