I'm also confused with what I want to do with my life.
I've been unmotivated and comfortable for so long I don't know how to change my routine and thus make changes to my life.
In my mind I beat the piss out of myself to change, but my body doesn't get up and help out.
I can't stop thinking about the fact that my g/f and I aren't technically together, nor are we apart. But she feels she can't stay with me like before when all she does is worry about me and the direction I'm headed.
The sad thing is, I wonder if I'll even *want* her around if I make such serious changes to myself and my lifestyle. Like if I improve the quality of my life and determine she was the reason I ever sank this low in the first place.
What if I'm destined to be alone.

That sort of thing.