1. feel like I'm a bad uncle to my oldest nephew. He is my brother's (rip) kid and I love him to death, but it's difficult to be around him sometimes, because he reminds me so much of my brother. I know I should be in his life more, especially since he looks up to me, but there isn't a day I don't think about my brother.

2. occasionally stress over school/living situation, mostly because of my age, but get over it quick since I realize not everyone follows the same path. I know what I want to do with my life and plan on reaching that goal. Plus, realized that paying off debt and not gaining more > the embarrassment of living at home. That and my mom says "your mexican, you have to stay at home" she's talking about the culture, which is different than here.

3. weight, I know I need to get back to losing weight and working out. Just feel unmotivated, but know it'll help with self esteem and other health issues in the future.

4. tired of being single, but still subconsciously put up a wall to any girl that I might be interested in. I hate the idea of being vulnerable to someone and worrying about them messing around with someone behind my back or using stuff they know about me against me.

5. focus sucks right now. I've been having a hard time being able to concentrate (for reasons I choose not to explain openly)

6. apparently, last week, I got so drunk that I got up in the middle of the night and decorated the bathroom and messed up a blanket. Also made an ass of myself at the bar with my buddy's roomate by trying to hit on her :hsugh:

mind you, this is just the major stuff that sometimes crosses my mind. Other than that, I love my life and who I am.

oh and I'm going to buy them a nice comforter h: