k, i didnt wanna hijack your thread h: so i put one up about some of the stuff i been thinkin of lately.

besides that, the whole crap about the accident. i dont wanna sound like a freakin baby, but it was my first accident and it was pretty big. having to take care of insurance, days i took off, still tryin to set up an appointment to get checked up, dealing w/ the other passengers in my car, and driving around a piece-of-garbage taurus is taking a toll on my head.

i guess my health is a concern, and i think i wouldve gone straight to a doctors after gettin rear-ended if i knew the area better. even though ive lived up here for almost a yr, i still dont know stuff like whats a good hospital/doctor to go to. it doesnt help that i missed the deadline for signing up for health insurance through my company. my work-buddy (like a mentor) forgot to remind me about the deadline and i missed it. i mean come on, ive never had to deal w/ this stuff so it wasnt fully on my mind. now im like ugh, whatever. just have to wait for the next open enrollment which is like january...

i wanna go back to school. i love learning and i love being in an open, academic environment. but this requires $$$, and i dont have any. i wish i could drop my job and go back for a masters somewhere, but thats impossible w/o accumulating a greater mass of debt.

sunday will be the first mothers' day since our family split up and i wanna try to do something special for my mom. she really didnt deserve what happened to her. and since im in nova, my moms an hr away, my middle brother is in college, we're so spread out i feel like shes not getting enough support.

...ok that was a lot. and i know thats just the half :hs: and im not a whiner, trust me