Originally Posted by canada
The more and more I think about it... it's leaving all I knew behind, all my family, friends... entire way of life behind for a girl I thought I would spend the rest of my life with.
Then... even though it wasn't really my choice, I am sure if I fussed enough, I could have stayed in the Marines. I think about it every day... about the experiences I have missed and all the brothers I left behind to fend for themselves. Semper fidelis my ass. I don't reflect that one bit. I failed as a Marine. I should have died out there in some sandy shithole... thats where I should have been.
There isnt one day that goes by that I dont think about this stuff... and I dont know what to do anymore. I'm losing it.
Anyone else...
damn, erik. you hide it well though. i never saw this side of you on here. now my story...
i regret not going into the Navy before I enrolled in college. At least then I would have set myself up for a career in some field and such. But now, 4 years later i'm broke as shit, my parents have no respect for me because i'm not fully independent like my sister, and my planned career doesn't seem to be agreeing with my college degree.
so now i'm in a huge fucking vise that just keeps getting tighter and tighter. yea i'm on medication for it, but with recent events just getting worse and not better, i don't think medication will help any longer.
here's to us both, may god have mercy on us.