well heres an update.
my parents are going, and my mom's brother and wife are going and few others are going. i really would like to go, but the problem lies in the airline tickets, being that there are hardly none available, and there too expensive, i cant.
i really want to go, he was something else. i personally cant believe this is happening, still hasn't hit me yet.
At most what i can do, which i just have, is help out my family alittle bit financially for the trip.
tark - really, the answer is i cant bare to see him like that. he was always glowing when i saw him, and talked to him, and the rest i cant put to words.
i dont know what to think right now.

thanks guys, really, i mean it. thank you.