I closed....I read....I reopened.

I am going to be a dick about this because from personal experience of dealing with my own drug addiction.

Don't do that shit...period. Theres not much else to say really.

Thanks to stimulants and not quitting when it would have been easy for me I ended up in the hospital twice, lost 60 +/- lbs, teeth problems (still), chemical imbalance and depression from it, loss of friends and family shunning me for a time.

You want all that? You want to end up ripping people off to feed your habit? you want to end up with heart problems because you wanted to party? you want to end up with a needle in your arm in some alley with hepatitis or even worse possibly AIDS? Oh yeah everyone says they won't shoot but at some point the offer will be there and you may be curious again then your down for an even bigger habit.

Then you decide to quit...ohhh...this is where it gets fun. You stop doing it and everything is fine, but your "friends" don't understand why so they keep offering it or do it in front of you. So of course they don't respect your decision so you really have to limit association with them or dump them all together in order to get and keep clean.

After a day or two of detox you begin to go through the fiend stage where you are scraping up anything that looks like a white powder and snorting it up (true story it happens). Of course you can't find a fix because you cleaned house of everything (if you really wanted to quit), because of this you begin to get mean and desperate. The people trying to help you are the ones you lash out at, you say mean...very mean things, you fight with them (sometimes physically). You get cramps, sweats, sleepless nights and a slew of other symptoms.

Once that is over you have to deal with the fact that you are now an addict and every time you see the stuff you have to fight your urge to want to do it "just one more time".

You wanna do it then do it, go ahead and hook yourself up and do a shit ton of that crap. You go ahead and waste your brain, your talent, and your body on a temporary feeling that is going to suck the life out of you....but if you want my sympathy in the matter then you can go fukk yourself.

I speak from personal experience and the pain of addiction which I still to this day have to be careful about, don't go that same route it isn't very glorious at all.