I am scared because I am not going to know when it happens, we will be here one second and the next we are not. I am also scared of not knowing how it is going to feel like to be dead and the thought of no heaven or hell, I would want to be some place and be able to see other people that died. I don't want to feel nothing; that is going to be too wierd. :wtc:
I wish that when we died we would just start our previous life over again so you can fix all of the things you did wrong. I don't think I should be thinking about this right now, I am too young to be thinking about death, when I am older my views might be different but for right now I am getting depressed thinking about it and I don't know what to do?
I really need to stop thinking about it, I am getting more and more depressed thinking about it. I mean I am not able to do stuff that I did before, and I really don't even laugh at funny stuff anymore and things are not really that fun anymore.
I guess I will make an appointment with a doctor because I am getting tired of this. I am only 18 I shouldnt be thinking about this, I know it could happen anytime but I am too young. I should be thinking about getting a girl friend and starting a family down the road.
I really haven't done anything terrible/sinful and I am not afraid of the consequences.
I am never going to be alive again or never know what is going on or anything and that is what is scaring me and making me depressed. I know when the time comes it comes. I guess the reason I keep thinking about it is that if I do keep thinking about it then it won't happen. And another reason I keep thinking about it when something gets in my head it is hard for me to stop thinking about it, it usally stops when the thing happens which I don't want that to be my reason to stop thinking about it this time. Like I said previously I think I am going to set up a doctors appointment so I can get this fixed. I am really scared and depressed right now. When ever I think about it I get sick to my stomach and I almost start to : I don't know what to do but I get more and more depressed everyday thinking about it and I am getting tired of it. All I want to do is sleep all day so I won't think about it.
I don't know why I am worrying about it. I guess I don't want it to happen.
When I get something on my mind it is hard for me to stop thinking about it. This is taking the longest, it usally takes 2 days for me to stop thinking about something but I have been thinking about this since Thursday.
Sometimes I get so scared, depressed, and upset that I hit the wall with both of my hands really hard and just keep doing it until my they start to hurt.
Everyday I think about it I get more and more scared. I really don't want it to happen.
Man I really don't want to die. I am going to miss the people that I love so much. I am going to hate it when my parents die, I love them so much and they have done so much for me, I won't be able to live without them. I dont know what I am going to do when they die, I know when it happens I am going to go into severe depression.
I am starting to have headaches everyday now. I am getting tired of this. Why do we have to die?
I am still thinking about it but not as much. I just hate the thought of never being on this earth again. Sometimes I feel like pulling my hair out. I just really don't want it to happen.