BTW I just wanted to say one more thing.

You are as normal as the rest of us are...normal is so relative that there really is no way to judge normalcy anymore.

We all have fukked up lives and do weird things and no matter how mature a person looks or acts they are fumbling through it just like you are.

You are just as normal as any one of us.....it just so happens you have a different sexual preference than many of us do....doesn't make you weird though.