it's nowhere near easy. but it has helped somewhat. it's the idea i'm trying to convey, to turn those negatives around. i've done a lot of soul searching in the last year, and it still seems like i only began yesterday. slowly, i hope to find myself. the hardest part was letting go of "friends." i evaluated every person in my life for their true worth, and now cling to only a few friends that i know will be there for me every time. and by few, i mean 3...2 of which are 400 miles and 2500 miles away.